Being over 25 does not insure ones ability to block out certain thoughts. I thought they would just turn off like a candle light snuffed out, but I am still thinking about what I am NOT supposed to be thinking about. This is still the hardest thing I've had to try and get out of my head since I learned that ice cream came in more than two flavors (vanilla and chocolate). Anyway....what to do???
I can let the thoughts persist, act on them, or I can deny them and see where that takes me. To let them persist would lead to nowhere but trouble. Sometimes I just want trouble to take me and I want to have fun with it. I have always played on the safe side and ...sometimes I'm just bored with that.
I guess that makes me ungrateful at times, but then again...I'm only human.
Back to these thoughts of, "what if", they usually come up when I'm not challenged or I am bored with the hum drum life I've slipped into. They are not lasting, but the fact that they still come up bothers me.
It bothers me, and there is no cure for it, at least not that I've found. I hate having such a vivid imagination too. I am really good at "imagining" what it would be like if....
ya know, "IF". So I guess I just need to let it ride and just go back to my normal life, create my own entertainment, and count my many blessings.
Yeah. I guess so.
